I HAVE TO STOP. PUSH ON THE BRAKES. NOW.
I GOTTA GET OVER IT NOW.


I am so confused. he knew but he still acted this way with me..... what doe sthat mean? he likes me but can't help it? he doesn't care about it because while he likes me there is no possibility it would work out? or the worst, HE DOESNT CARE, DOESNT LIKE ME... and I was just being stupid. He was just going along with me... and thats just the way he is.

oh good god.

i have no idea what to do...
but i know i need to stop this.

or i dont, but i need to get over it.