Life lesson when things are complex and insecure:

I have learned that when one feels unsettled with people and upset/insecure...

one should-

CHILL THE FUCK OUT.


Suddenly the world will seem like an easier place to live in.

Musings

- Why do we like some things, yet not others?
- Why are we drawn to some people, yet not to some others?
- Why do we click so well with some people, and not at all, no matter how hard we try, with others?

It's hard to be possessive.
It's hard to expect and not be disappointed.

What I want to do...

I want to lie down and let life live.

People come and go... who will stay? People say they are your good friends, but who really is? What defines friendship? What are the rules of friendship? Do you NEED a type of friend? (e.g. someone who can shower you with gifts when it's your birthday...) it sounds superficial, but somehow I find that that shows some sort of love, when someone cares about you enough to give you something great.
I don't know... and I keep feeling like there is something wrong with me and my outlook on life and the world.
It's tiring and it makes me unhappy.
I am drained by all these things all the time. I am insecure about people all the time.
I want to change... I want something to be different...

gonna shower.