一丁点

又来了

不高兴

没希望

没意义

窒息感

想回去

想重来

想离开

要更多

在回想

有后悔

有遗憾

有幸苦

淡味道

不精彩

烂朋友

太少人

天太冷

很悲哀

想离开。

is...

Is security in friendships THAT hard to find?

is it THAT hard to find a bunch of good friends? is it THAT hard to find some people you click with, can make you feel secure and can see you?

looks bleak.

友谊。。。 我可以给，但怎么一直失望？

pendulum

一直盘旋在 否定与肯定之间
没有明确的答案

你一直不让我明白
不让我死心
但你也不肯给我明确的事实

为何一直让我牵挂
没有了断

拖拖拉拉 又有什么结局？

依依不舍
放不了手

对我没有表现但是有奇怪的密语
每当我觉得你好象有感觉
你却把话讲的如此平淡
每当我觉得没有希望
你却把话讲的如此动感

你到底心里是怎么想？

还好。。

要学会怎么去handle worry 不可以让他导致自己什么也做不了。


“ 輸了這麼一次　當存點運氣”

。。。just take it easy


"We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play the hand."

加油！

Bad Cards

Sometimes getting stuck with people is luck.

And throughout college, my luck has been decent. And now, because the universe has a way of balancing things... my luck has changed. Tides have changed and now I have been dealt a very bad hand of crap people.

It is so frustrating.. so very frustrating it brings tears to my eyes from being angry. What should I do? I refuse to succumb to a bad grade because of lazy people. I want to rise above and take charge, but it is hard. So many negative feelings and worry is overwhelming me.

I just want everyone to be decent enough to take responsibility as a member of the group and do the work. Why are some people just so lazy and so irresponsible? It is amazing.

People say look on the bright side, you can learn how to be a leader. Right now I feel nothing like one. I feel like maybe it is turning into power play or something. Like I need to fight for authority then use that to get them to go with what needs to be done.

I don't think that is the right way to do things at all. I need to learn how to be a leader.. but with my other obligations and commitments... it just seems really hard to do right now. I don't know. so many worries about things and getting involved and doing a good job...

I need a break = =

I HAVE TO STOP. PUSH ON THE BRAKES. NOW.
I GOTTA GET OVER IT NOW.


I am so confused. he knew but he still acted this way with me..... what doe sthat mean? he likes me but can't help it? he doesn't care about it because while he likes me there is no possibility it would work out? or the worst, HE DOESNT CARE, DOESNT LIKE ME... and I was just being stupid. He was just going along with me... and thats just the way he is.

oh good god.

i have no idea what to do...
but i know i need to stop this.

or i dont, but i need to get over it.

anger vent

if i don't seem like i like you that much, it is probably true.

I want to bitch. I want to bitch about this bitch. This bitch is such a bitch that she will bitch. she bitches about bitches or people she can just bitch about. there is nothing this bitch doesn't bitch about. there is nothing she doesn't spread. if there was a human radio, she is it. funny she can go on about people's business when everyone knows about hers. her dirty laundry are all over the street's.

she should care about her own massive vagina and her matching conker.

watch urself bitch.
BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FFFFFFFFFFFFFUKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFffff

why can't u disappear out of my life, out of the lives of people I care about.

FUK OFF BITCH

no one likes you .... the only friends you have are STDs from fucking around